I have some amazing cousins. Truly, I am so lucky to know them and even luckier that they have put up with me all these years.
One cousin in particular has opened my eyes. She has made me look at my children and feel extremely blessed to have them. His sweet baby girl, Dempsey, is the reason. She passed away after only living for 31 days. Her story can be found here. In fact, there is an entire foundation dedicated to her in the hopes of helping other families that have also had the loss of a sweet baby too soon. It can be found here.
Even though I never held her, never heard her cry, or never got a chance to see her open her eyes when I see her picture I feel her. I feel my dear sweet cousin's heartache and endless love for his little girl and my heart aches for him. Even after all these years.
She would have been seven years old this spring. Just over a year younger than my Hannah. I wonder if they would have been good friends? I wonder if they would've liked the same things? I wonder why I still have my daughter to hold and love and my cousin doesn't.
There are so many questions, we mortals have, I'm sure more than are necessary. But we are what we are. Constantly questioning the heavens, searching for reasons beyond understanding at times, looking and hoping that suddenly all will be right in this world.
Oh how grateful I am for a Savior that understands our every struggle, every heartache, every pain imaginable. Because of Him, I can be with my family forever. One day I will see those that have gone before me, and will follow me after I leave this earth life. That comfort alone, sustains me. And, it is enough.
So the next time your children are doing something horrible, like having a tantrum in the middle of the grocery store, or dropping your favorite pair of earrings down the garbage disposal, remember: At least they are here. At least you have today with them to love them and hold them and kiss them. Remember how blessed you are. Because who knows when we'll be separated by death and reunited again in the heavens.
And, remember how lucky you are. To have a Savior who gave His all so that you and your children could have it all.
To listen to the song Dempsey's father wrote for her click the link below.
Too Good for This World
Katy is a musically inclined mother of three who loves life, her husband Dave, and cheesecake. Her fun filled roller coaster of thoughts can be found at http://www.ourdaisylife.blogspot.com/ Admission is always free.