It is a Sunday and my husband has been out of town for three days. I am sitting here in the midst of dirty dishes, noodle splattered floors, screaming children and somewhere in the very far background the sound of church music.
I have two boys who can't find pants so they've opted for underwear only. I have a 10 month old
Two days ago a tree fell down in my backyard.
Yesterday none of my children felt they needed to listen to me when I told them not to play in the water fully clothed.
This morning I woke up one hour before church started... I managed to put on eye liner.
I recently read a quote by David O. McKay recently that said
"There should be no yelling in the home unless there is a fire."
I think my house must be a pile of ash by now.
I can't open jars when my husband is gone. I can't cut up broken down tree's. I can't even get my kids to stop screaming "Stupid!" at each other.
In three days my world has become a haze of dirty diapers and snack-times.
Yet one thought continues to resurface in my mind. How do single mom's do it? How do they survive nights when they are tag teamed by children who should know better than to crawl into bed and steal all the covers. How do they go to bed knowing that all they have to look forward to is the promise of more messes tomorrow. How? How!?
When I was fifteen my parents divorced and my mom became the sole provider for myself and my little sister. It wasn't until I had experienced my husbands first long absence that I fully appreciated the burdens that she had carried.
Now I wonder how she ever did it?
I can imagine myself holding onto my husbands leg and begging him not to leave me alone again. But my husband will be back in two weeks and I'll then be able to take a day off. There is a light at the end of my tunnel and it makes me wonder, again, how do single parents do it!? Day in and day out?
Don't get me wrong, I love my children, I adore them, it's just that sometimes a woman needs a break. Sometimes an adult needs to actually feel like one.
So to all the single mom's out there I bow in humble acknowledgment of the burden that you carry. And wonder... how do you do it!?
Cannwin spends her time searching for her inner Shakespeare in the hopes that one day she will be able to dethrone the king and take her place as the greatest writer of all time. She currently resides in South Dakota with her husband and four children. You can explore more of her world at The Great and Random Ramblings of Cannwin and The Literary Soundtrack.